I think the last time I blogged about my weight loss efforts was back in April, right after I broke my toe. Well, the toe took three weeks to heal and four weeks after the incident that precipitated the broken toe, I got back to running. I decided to take a step back one week on the C25k program, so I wasn't starting all over, but I did give my body a chance to catch up.
So here I am, about to start week SIX of Couch 2 5k. I think this is about where I threw in the towel and quit back in 2010 -- not because it was too hard, but because, honestly, I think I was scared of completing it. I know that sounds weird. But I have a nasty habit of getting thisclose to finishing something and stopping just because I'm afraid of what comes after the finish line.
This time I can't quit though. I have a race that I'm running on 7/12, and I have a large group of coworkers who are running with me and so I have an impetus to finish. And I'm actually looking forward to it -- AND I have a plan for "what comes after" as well, so that I don't fall into the trap I fell into in 2010.
The running itself is really going well. I had a good, nearly 20 minute straight run on Friday, which is a definite improvement over six weeks ago when I was begging for mercy after 60 seconds. I only had to stop running 16 minutes into it because my stomach got upset. But I felt truly amazing that I made it that long. I gave myself mental high fives. All I know is -- when I left work, all I wanted to do was go home and sleep. But I pushed myself to at least try. And I made it. I ran 16 out of the 20 minutes and then hit the weight machines.
As far as the actual weight loss goes, though...that's a disappointment. I'm sitting at 276.4 as of this morning. Six pounds up from where I was in April, and despite the fact that I am at the gym almost every single day, that number is actually going up. I wish I could blame it on water retention or muscle gain, but my scale measures both of those numbers and neither has budged. I would love to be below 270 by the end of the month, but that may be an ambitious goal.
My good friend and I have an accountability group on Facebook (it's just the two of us) where we cheer each other on. She has been sick and hasn't been able to do the exercise, but she did the healthy eating, whereas I (admittedly) have been eating crap. She has lost like 5lbs since we started over a month ago. I have gained 2 since we started. I think the takeaway there is that exercise is important for many reasons but when it comes to losing weight, the proof is in that you really can't outtrain a bad diet. So there's that. I bought a bunch of healthy foods this week so we'll see next Monday what that impact was.
But, as my minister said in her sermon at church yesterday (which I know is out of context for the sake of this blog post, but I'm mentioning for the fact that I'm borrowing her phrase)...onward and upward, onward and upward. So here I go, onward and upward! And may the scale go downward.